La vita è come...

FUCKIN' BITCHES.

2009-08-26T19:57:00.000-10:00

Bullshit is not an obligation. It's an option. You do NOT have to endure anything you don't want to.

Hmmmm.

2009-08-18T22:06:00.001-10:00

"It isn't how much you do, but how much love you put into the doing that matters."

In the back of your mind huh?

2009-08-14T20:10:00.002-10:00

I use to think that maybe I was a reminder of what you couldn't have,

but I guess I'm a reminder of how you lost everythin' that meant the world to you.

& I thought I was included in that world.

Guess not.

In my mind, I ask you....

2009-08-13T23:43:00.003-10:00

Who do you love......

ME?

OR THE THOUGHT OF ME?

Hello World.

2009-08-13T23:18:00.000-10:00

Guess who's back.....?

:)

Give give give give.

2009-04-29T02:19:00.002-10:00

& nothin' in return.
fuck you.

It's been a minute.

2009-03-02T16:32:00.001-10:00

Busy Lifestyle=Slackin' blogs.

Mmmmm.

2009-02-06T13:12:00.001-10:00

1. Diamond Girl
2. Addiction (w/ Cassie & Fabolous)
3. You’re Fly
4. Quicksand
5. Valentine
6. Just Right
7. How It Was Supposed to Be
8. Irina
9. Out of the Blue
10. Shouldn’t Have to Wait
11. Wanna Be Good
12. Gibberish

Get it together.

2009-01-26T23:43:00.001-10:00

"Speak words of beauty and you will be there.
No matter what anybody says,
What matters most is what you think of yourself"

Sometimes.

2009-01-25T21:15:00.002-10:00

Life is so surprising.

People are beautiful & ugly in so many ways.

I feel myself slowly slippin' away but I've caught myself.

Sometimes I close my eyes & I don't know whether I'm dreaming or imagining a delicious part of life I want so bad to experience. Stuck in a box. I have many options yet none at the same time.

Fuck.

Brilliance.

2009-01-22T00:42:00.002-10:00

You never know what's comin' for ya.

2009-01-14T13:15:00.003-10:00

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

"You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went, you can curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go. "

"For what it's worth, it's never too late, or in my case too early, to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit... start whenever you want... you can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that stop you. I hope you feel things that you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life that you're proud of and if you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again. "

"Benjamin, we're meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us? "

*Hands down. The most inspirational movie I've watched in awhile.

Seriously.

2009-01-11T14:18:00.006-10:00

First & foremost, I have to say that I finally got a new camera.

I've been hella excited to use it & I can finally express my passion for photography.

So I haven't blogged in a couple of days. Here's a recap.

The other night I went to a Vietnamese bar wit' a few friends I needed to catch up wit'---catch up wit' in drinkin' shall I say. Chill & buzz.

Oh & I forgot...I ate a shit load of snails.

Seriously!

So, the next day while I was waitin' for the bus I thought I could test my camera out a little bit more & I took a beautiful picture of pigeons.

Good Karma.

2009-01-08T22:23:00.003-10:00

Today, I looked good & felt good.

Such and such.....

As I was at the counter ringin' up a customer, my customer was short $2. It seemed as if she really wanted the shoes 'cause she insisted in comin' back the next day to get it but we're only allowed to hold a shoe until the end of the night. I decided to give her $2 of mine just 'cause I know how it feels to want somethin' so bad & not be able to have it due to some circumstances.

She told me thank you so much & it felt so good inside to make someone's day. Sure, it was a lousy $2 but she got what she wanted.

Another thing.

I was walkin' to Nordstrom to pick up some dinner.

As I was crossin' the crosswalk, I saw a little boy givin' his younger sister a piggyback ride. I could see tears in her eyes & I assumed maybe she was tired of walkin' & her feet hurt. I thought it was so sweet that her brother who didn't seem that much older her helped her out by givin' her a piggyback ride. It probably woulda not lasted long 'cause he seemed as if he was strugglin' but it made me smile.

Grand ol' day.

Oh how I love good people.

It's been a long time.

2009-01-07T02:59:00.004-10:00

Since I've hung out wit' my best friends.
I'm proud to say nothin' has changed & we're still goofy as fuck.

"Friendship multiplies the good of life and divides the evil."
-- Baltasar Gracian (1647)

Talk Dirty.

2009-01-05T17:23:00.001-10:00

FUCK YOU.

Rewind button.

2008-12-11T17:45:00.001-10:00

It feels like my life has been put on pause.

I want so bad to fast forward to see what's really gonna happen to me.

but I wouldn't wanna wind up like Adam Sandler in Click.

Fuck.

So much to say.....

2008-12-08T00:58:00.000-10:00

......so little time.

Happy Thanksgivin'.

2008-11-27T12:24:00.001-10:00

Aight, enough wit' the jollyness. Black Friday is what it is!

Release, Nov 22

2008-11-21T00:53:00.000-10:00

Wake up call.

2008-11-12T13:36:00.003-10:00

The Irony of Love

Loving the right person at the wrong time,
Having the wrong person when the time is right,
And finding out you love someone,
Right after that person walks out of your life...
And sometimes,
You think you're already over a person,
But when you see them smile at you,
You'll suddenly realize,
That you're just pretending
To be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that
They will never be yours again...

For some,
They think that letting go is one way
Of expressing how much you love the person...

Most relationships tend to fail not because,
The absence of love.
Love is always present.
It's just that one was being loved too much
And the Other was being loved too little...

As we all know the heart is the center of the body,
But it beats on the left.
Maybe that's the reason
Why the heart is not always right...

Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love,
But to only discover that for them,
We are just for past times,
While the one who truly
Loves us remains either a friend or a stranger...

So here's a piece of advice:
Let go when you're hurting too much.
Give up when love Isn't enough,
And move on when things are not like before..
For sure, there is someone out there,
Who will love you even more...

You will never forget your first love...
Thats what makes it so special...
You love so hard...
So deeply...
And so intensely because you don't know any different...
Its best until its over...
Then you hurt like you've never hurt before...
And eventually you will love again...
But you love more differently...
You love more carefully...
More cautiously...
Just know there is so much more love waiting for you...
But there will always only be one first...

Barack=Blessed

2008-11-12T02:29:00.002-10:00

"That's the promise of America - the idea that we are responsible for ourselves, but that we also rise or fall as one nation; the fundamental belief that I am my brother's keeper; I am my sister's keeper."

Can't wait to see what the world has in store for me.

Release, Nov 8.

2008-11-07T22:10:00.003-10:00

Y'all should know the drill. See ya guys bright & early :D

Bitch Fit.

2008-11-06T22:08:00.005-10:00

Courage

Sacrifice

Determination

Commitment

Toughness

Heart

Talent

Guts

That's what girls are made of, the heck with sugar and spice.

-Bethany Hamilton

There's more to a woman that ass, tits & a face to go wit' it. Although us woman have our advantages & have our magical powers, respect should always be given.

You want a whore to bend over whenever you please, be my guest. BUT a lady wit' good intensions, a good heart, a positive mind wit' goals, and who can fuck the shit outta you in the most blissful ways is the business.

Stay classy ladies, we don't have enough trashbags for you.

Still Life Violation.

2008-11-05T21:49:00.002-10:00

"I don't know where I'm going
Or where this is taking me
It's okay

Half my life
I've spent on a chair
With an ordinary table
A blank page for the day

In rooms
Too many to count
Sometimes mine, oftentimes not
But, always, never finished

Killing hours
Confronting memories
That are mine
And not mine

Some call it breaking and entering
Other daily daydreams
Permanent brain damage
Vermeer's hematoma

The diagnosis is endless
For this solo circus feat
This spontaneous disobedience
This still live violation

Name it whatever
I still answer, don't I?
Whenever I, imagined or not,
Hear your voice."

-The Evolution of a Sigh

Scream, trends & the middle finger.

2008-10-29T13:51:00.007-10:00

Sorry I haven't blogged since last week Thursday. Terrible, I know.

First things first. Caught up in my reading, & I just need to share a part from Portrait #3.

"Sometimes I just want to scream
a scream until another one of me
breaks out and pulls the string
holding the brightest ever star."

How beautiful reality can be when you lay down, close your eyes & imagine.

SO....today's topic will be the TRENDS OF 2008.

I won't be showin' all of them but just a few that I favor the most.

Red Lipstick

Lemme just say not everyone can pull of this look. You'll be your own judge to see if you can pull this off. To those who know they can: Do not wear heavy eye makeup. Some peach blush and pretty lashes will do the trick. We want the focus on those pretty little lips of yours!

Dark smokey eyes

Smokey eyes are so mysterious & eye catching. Some ladies tend to overdo this like a couple in the picture, but don't do it like theirs. That's for runway modeling so everything should be over the top. If you would like to know how to do dark and smokey go to www.youtube.com for tutorials made by many girls. Choose which one suits you best.

Plaid, Plaid, Plaid

The only thing I can say is, DON'T OVERDO IT ;]

Pictures provided by: http://www.fashionising.com

Ho, tha nice.

2008-10-23T21:53:00.002-10:00

Big Release on Saturday, October 25. We open at 11. 10:30 if we're feelin' nice. Phone orders will be taken at 12 by ME ;]

See y'all there.

A woman's worth.

2008-10-21T21:30:00.002-10:00

I just have to ask.....WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR A MAN TO BE GOOD TO THEIR GIRL? I just have to know what's the damn problem. Is it hard to call your girl up in the middle of the day just to say you're thinkin' of her? Is it so difficult to surprise her wit' a lil' somethin' to make her smile? Or just thank her for lovin' you? Do, WE women ask for so much that it can't be achievable? I just think that males do not know how to show affection. All they know how to do is EAT, PLAY VIDEO GAMES, DRINK WIT' THEIR HOMIES, TRY TO FUCK, & ACT TOUGH. I'm sorry, I know not all guys are this way, but I have to put those who are on blast. I don't think we ask for much. We don't need a nigga from "The Notebook" or from "A walk to remember". We just want a man who's grown enough to know a woman's worth. Fuck apologies & start doin' some grown ass relationship shit. Believe me when I say that when a woman says "i love you no matta the weatha", she means it. So don't take her for granted.

Society lacks in reading.

2008-10-20T23:34:00.003-10:00

My mama gave me a book earlier, & I just started readin' it. So far I'm impressed. The author is her boyfriend's cousin, R. Zamora Linmark.

" Roast in translation:
Me love you wrong time."

Good stuff people, check it out.

Cravings.

2008-10-19T23:39:00.006-10:00

To go to my most favorite place in the whole fuckin' world.

The cure to a heartache.

A stroller, so I can take Ziggy everywhere!

The new mac line comin' soooooooooooon. "RED" she said.

& a new boyfriend, preferrably him.

GOODNIGHT FOLKS <3

Sad, but true.

2008-10-16T23:35:00.002-10:00

Nothin' in life is constant except change.

The biggest fear of all, yet the only thing anyone ever really looks forward to.
Everyone wants a change that's positive, & it's only thing we ask for. But 99.9 % of the time, the change we want, isn't what we hoped for.

It all depends on us, not on those we wanna change.
It takes more than just hope & faith. It's you doin' somethin' about it.

The hard work you put it now determines how things will be later.

I know at times, it seems like prayer doesn't work but I feel like if God can see the effort, he'll not grant you what you've been askin' for but he'll show you a way to it.

Enough complainin' now. In life, you don't always get what you deserve. Negative or positive. Somehow, someway you must survive.

Mild.

2008-10-15T00:13:00.003-10:00

She doesn't wanna be bothered, nor does she wanna be left alone.
She doesn't wanna be fixed, nor does she wanna be broken.
She doesn't ask for much, nor does she ask for less.
She doesn't need be needed, but she wants to be needed.

She is slowly rotting away inside.

La la la la.

2008-10-11T20:33:00.004-10:00

I worked at Fitted today 'cuz we had a new release. There was line eva since last night. I have to say this release was fuckin' dope. Loved the color-way. It felt good to see my homies again 'cuz I haven't worked for the past 3 saturdays.

Here's a lil' sample of how the hat looked & the matchin' tee in the background:

Yeah, that's me wit' my boss who I call my daddy 'cuz he looks so much like my real one.

Anyways, here's a lil' secret....I got my tattoo today. Just the right side though. My 2nd session is on Wednesday. My girls Jackie & Jonabelle came wit' me. I just have to say....it was painful! Especially on my ribs but you know what I think I can handle it. It wasn't as bad as I thought & I love how it came out. It basically felt like a sunburn that was gettin' poked wit' a needle. I know, it sounds horrible. Big ups to Ron fron Trigga Happy. He's def the man, no doubt. Stay tuned....'cuz I ain't postin' up pics just yet.

Later.

Allow me to introduce myself...

2008-10-09T10:44:00.007-10:00

The name's Candise. I'm 19 years old. I'm Jewish, Spanish, Russian, Italian & lastly Filipino. I was born in the Philippines but migrated to San Diego when I was 1 years old. My mom & dad got a divorce when I was 5 years old. I went to school in the Philippines for the 1st & 2nd grade, then I moved here in honolulu. I've been livin' in Kalihi eva since. I'm currently livin' wit' my boyfriend in this crazy house. I have a dog named Ziggy that I love so much. He's def my happiness when shit hits the fan. I have 3 half sisters. I work at Aldo & Fitted. I might be one of the only few people to say I love my jobs & those I work wit'. My mom lives 2 streets away wit' her boyfriend & my two younger sisters. I'm finally learnin' the meaning of hard work & independance. I've neva worked so hard in my life, I tell ya this.

Everythin' was always handed down to me. I had everythin' I wanted when I wanted it. My mom didn't know the meanin' of love. She knew money & she knew it well. She splurged when it came to my toys & clothes. She was neva there to help wit' homework, read me bedtime stories or bring me to the park. My mother was & still is the biggest hustla I know. Let's not get shit twisted people. Bein' a hustla doesn't necessarily mean you're a drug dealer or a hooker. My mom was neither of those. She just had her ways. Growin' up I didn't have a father. He was always in my heart & I always hoped one day he & my mom would reconsider this seperation & get back together. Growin' up..my mom & I became more & more distant. I got older basically & I was tired of her shit. I relied on my friends to help me keep my mind off of shit that was goin' on at home. My mom was neva proud of me. Everythin' I did was useless to her. It makes me cry just thinkin' about the past. I'm grown now. I don't live wit' her but I see her a couple times a week. Our relationship is much better 'cuz we don't live together. But if there's one thing I can say proudly is that my mom neva let me rot. Somehow, someway she would still provide for me. I've finally accepted the fact that my mother wasn't perfect. She was a terrible mother to me but there's def worse out there. She's not your ideal mother you see like Mrs. Cleaver but she tried to straighten out her life. I know she tried. I love her very much & I don't wanna take her for granted anymore. It's time to release the bad & get on wit' the good.

“Focus on remedies, not faults."

2008-10-09T01:03:00.009-10:00

*Mission Failed.

I can't help but say how fed up I get am when we get days like this. Shit's crazy. I need chocolate.